Sunday, June 10, 2012
We All Carry On
As life goes on these days I find that Keep Calm and Carry On has become my mantra. Life has it's peaks and valleys its ebb and flow and all we can do is just carry on.
Ben and I had hoped that our life would be taking a very different direction this June in many ways but here we are in June and we are still just wishing and waiting.
Some licensing issues have put our biggest change on hold and another sizable change just does not seem to be happening for us which really is not the end of the world but does seem to be an irrational fear coming to life.
When I look at our stumbles however, I do realize just how lucky we are to have such small struggles in life. Yes, we have had to put plans on hold and yes we will have to endure things that we wish we did not have to for just a little longer but, we have it pretty good.
We both have well paying jobs. We have family that loves us. We have friends to eat mexican or have pizza and beer or sit at Fast Eddies with. We have amazing neighbors to have porch parties with on two minutes notice. We have nieces and nephews to fill up our hearts and our sweet little puppy girls to play and cuddle with.
We do not have to worry about the intrusive or ridiculous comments every family member or random person on the street has to say about the way we are handling a divorce. We do not have to worry about what people think about us still having lunch together and taking our children on vacation together but not actually being "together". We do not have to decide whether or not to have a "sit down conversation" with our toddler about why Daddy does not live with us anymore.
We do not have learn how to steer in a new life where life changes have taken you in a direction where you are suddenly a single working mom instead of a married stay at home mom. We do not have to worry what people will think if we share a meal or a drink with another man or woman; What people will think if we take a vacation alone on our ex-spouses weekend with the kids.
We are in good health and do not have to worry about where the money will come from while one of us is on sick leave without pay. We do not have to worry about our spouse as we realize that they may be going back down a road of mental instability.
We are strong. We are happy in our relationship. We are content for now in our daily life though we may still be dreaming of what it will be like in the next few months but we will carry on!
Here's to two lines in Cali August 2012!!