Dear, Chris...

Why did you do this to me? How could you leave me and all of your other family and friends here wondering why?

You promised me you would never hurt me again. You promised that you would never let anyone hurt me they way you did again but, it is so much worse this time. You ripped my heart right out of my chest and stomped on it.

I think of you every week, every day, sometimes every minute. It hurts so, so, very badly. On top of everything, you took away letting me and everyone else say goodbye. You were there on the other end of the phone one day and the next week you were just gone... I never got to see you again... I never got to tell you how much you meant to me. You saved my life and then took your own.

"You're worth it, Lori Beth, you are so worth it. This world would be much less without you in it," you said...

Well, you were worth it too, Chis. You were so very worth it... And this world hurts without you in it. It hurts...